Soap Operas, Spirituality, and Embracing Life

In the busy hectic world of getting up, going to work, cooking meals, and washing clothes, and then rinse and repeating the whole cycle. I (and 99% of humanity) get lost in the the monotonous and tedious chores of day to day living. In a form of gluttonous viewership I often will watch a soap opera or a drama movie to immerse myself in the life of the rich and famous and pretend that life is as action packed as the moment to moment scandals of the whorish and rich soap opera stars. TV time for me has become a large part of my schedule thanks to this frigidly cold weather we have been having recently. Not much of  my TV viewership contributes to my betterment but is merely emotionally entertaining, except for recently.

In a recent episode of General Hospital Carli the ex mob boss's wife, ex philanthropist's wife, mother of 2, and rich woman of her own right is upset that she has had sex with a notorious loser and then later realized that he had rightfully earned his name. After her frustrations she breaks into his old hotel room and in a moment of fury and drunkenness she cuts off her hair in hack job that was reminiscent of Edward Scissorhands finer works. I watched this scene several times with shame and guilt. This scene was more familiar then most. How many times had I dated a loser or had sex haphazardly? How many times had I in fury and drunkenness committed acts that I would later have to face? 

It's been a few days since that episode and I keep coming back to it. The shame and guilt have gone away and I feel pride in my heart. I have grown. I have learned to measure my emotions. I have learned to associate with healthier people. I have found the love of my life (thank you bobby). I have matured and realized the power and consequences of choices. I have learned to let go of emotions that don't serve me and when necessary use them for the energy I need to make the changes in my life that are wanted. When discussing this blog and episode with my husband he expressed the changes he has seen. "Your not so high strung.... Thank GOD!!" he praised after.

There are a few essential truths I have learned recently that seemed to have made the biggest difference.

Everything is as it is. You can either be mad or see it as an opportunity.

Nothing is really that big of a deal.

I'm going to die and I need to make sure I get what I want out of this life.

Life is suppose to be hard, that's life.

Try to live green and contribute to the world. Buy recycled stuff, recycle stuff, help someone who needs help, and try to involve yourself to helping humanity make the needed changes to insure the survival and enjoyment of future generations.

Stop being so self centered, people don't intentionally try to screw up or be mean to you. (and if they do fuck em)

And finally,

All that matters is relationships AND you attaining the goals that your soul's purpose calls you to do. And sometimes that means do nothing.

P.S. When you get the chance running around naked in nature is pretty awesome too!!!